Live at the Sands..

7:38pm: long time no see. i know. im sorrry. but ive been busy. you know with buying the house, moving, several trips to california, etc. etc. so heres the long lost update:

1. the house is ok. 3 bedrooms, all wood floor, huge kitchen, my own yard... but im sick of it. the fun of having a new house ran out probably 4 months after buying it. im just not ready to have to deal with the responsibility of paying bills, maintaining a house, playing family. im over it.

2. im enrolled in college... again. hopefully ill used this major and hopefully i wont waste another two years of time and money. this time im going for computer tech. and programming. eventually i will hopefully make alot of money. my schedule is mon - fri 8-2. not bad but i miss the old days of all classes after 10.

3. i will admit it: i wish i had waiting on getting married. you all were right. it seemed like a good idea at the time. i still love alex, dont get me wrong, but i would do anything to be only a fiance or girlfriend again. just another set of responsibilities i dont want to have.

4. i have a dog (actually a choodle) named oreo. see my myspace pix to see her. she keeps me sane and i love her to death.

5. i am unfortunately still working at marshalls. i only stay with them because its so flexible. they will basically work around whatever comes up, and with school and vacations coming up its good to have a flexible job.

6. i feel as though my life is falling apart. with andrew going to college in the fall and my meme moving in, and me living here, its just not the life ive always had and it makes me so depressed. im just not handling the growing up thing very well.

thats about it so far. oh, and no kids, thank god. but i will be updating again. sorry for the absence.


x

2:53pm: Heres the link to my new journal, mostly about our new house, the move, and living in the south.


http://thibedeau.blogspot.com/

11:53pm: I don't want to be hostile.
I don't want to be dismal.
But I don't want to rot in an apathetic existance either.
See
I want to believe you,
and I want to trust
and I want to have faith to put away the dagger.

But you lie, cheat, and steal.
And yet
I tolerate you.
Veil of virtue hung to hide your method
while I smile and laugh and dance
and sing your praise and glory.
Shroud of virtue hung to mask your stigma
as I smile and laugh and dance
and sing your glory
while you
lie, cheat, and steal.
How can I tolerate you.

Our guilt,our blame ,
I've been far too sympathetic.
Our blood, our fault.
I've been far too sympathetic.

I am not innocent.
You are not innocent.
Noone is innocent.

1:25pm:

2:19pm: So, not going to Cali.

Alex got there two weekends ago and said its an awful town and he wouldnt feel safe at night with me being there. So my plans are all in shables again. I am going out to see him for a weekend (June 23-26th) and Im practically peeing my pants thinking about it. It will definitely be the best birthday gift! Just seeing my husband!

So Im just working here until late October then were still suppposedly station in North Carolina so Im looking foreward to that too.

Oh, just applied for the security job at the hospital. Crossing my fingers I hope I get it.

Thats about it, just a quick update so you know Im still alive.

1:26pm: Alex got his orders today!! Were going to California from June 1 to October 19!!!


So much planning to do!!

8:15pm: please :)
My name:

Who is the love of my life:

Where did we meet:

Take a stab at my middle name:

How long have you known me:

When is the last time that we saw each other:

Do I smoke:

Do I drink:

What was your first impression of upon meeting me/seeing me:

What's one of my favorite things to do:

Am I funny:

What's my favorite type of music:

What is the best feature about me:

Am I shy or outgoing:

Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules:

Do I have any special talents:

Would you call me preppy, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else (what):

Have you ever hugged me:

What is my favorite food:

Have you ever had a crush on me:

If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be:

What's your favorite memory of me:

Who do I like right now:

What is my worst habit:

If you and I were stranded on a desert island, what is the one thing I would bring?

Are we friends:

Do you want us to be more than friends?

Will you repost this so I can do it?

8:12pm: Tomorrow Alex will finally find out where we're moving to in a few weeks!! Sooo friggin excited. As soon as he finds out I get to start looking at appartments again!!!


<3

7:49pm: Wenesday: got back to Bham and its unbelieveable Im here. Had dinner with my parents.

Thursday: Hm.. I forgot. Hung out with Nicole I think?

Friday: Pops night with Amanda. Not too bad, the band seemed kind of weak. I didnt leave feeling impressed.

Today: Went to Sarahs graduation. Congrats Litty, Im happy for you!!

Going to see Eric tonight.

Thats all.

4:31pm:

YAY!

Today is my 1 year anniversary of getting engaged!!!

: )

11:02am: Lets see:

5 days til Im home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Had my first round of finals this morning, now Im off to work 12-5 hopefully Ill be back at school to sell my books tonight and get some cash. Another final tonight at 6.

Friday: Just work 2-10

Saturday: Work 10-5

Sunday: Work 11-630

Monday: Dont know yet

Tuesday: Hand in take home final, deliver speech for Oral Comm.

Wednesday: LAST FINAL EVER!!! Then leaving to go home around 530.

SO thats that. I cant believe its finally over. Ill be pretty busy when I get home, starting the 15th, Im doing the hospital Mon-Fri 330-730 and then Marshalls I told them I could do the mornings and weekends if they want. Oh well.

Alex will be getting his orders soon and I cant friggin wait to find out where were moving too. He thinks its going to be SC or VA but who knows. I dont care!! Ill be working for a bit and were planning to move me down the first weekend of June if he isnt able to come home for leave. So exciting. It doesnt even feel like were married but this will finally be like, wow were are living together doing husband and wife things. Weird to think about.

Ok off to work. Im going to try to stop avoiding the LJ.

3:10pm: ugh ive had it with the fucking illegal aliens. get the fuck out.

10:45pm: 12 days kiddies!!

8:00pm: Ahhhhh 16 days left of college! w00t!

Anyway, Ill be back, working at Marshalls and the hospital for an undetermined amount of time until Alex gets his orders and figures things out. Then Ill finally know what Im doing!! We want a hobo appt. soo bad haha its going to be crazy. When he gets to his next school were just going to get a one bedroom appt. and go total hobo so we dont have to spend alot of money on it. <3 The Hobo Thibedeaus!

Had my wedding shower on Saturday and it was alot of fun. We got some pimpin' gifts.

Ok worked all day and Im freekin beat.

9:57pm: Who Cares If A Marine Dies?
Take a man and put him alone,
Put him twelve thousand miles from his home.
Empty his heart of all his blood,
Make him live in sweat and mud.
This life I choose to live,
This is the soul to god I give.
You have your parties and drink your beer,
While young men die over here.
Protest the war and have your fun,
And still refuse to carry a gun.
There is nothing else for you to do,
Yet I'm supposed to die for you?
There is one thing that you should know,
And that is where I think you should go.
I am already here so its too late,
I have traded all love just for hate.
I will hate this place till the day I die,
I will forever hear my brother cry.
I saw his head and the blood he shed,
Just before the corpsman said, "It looks like another dead"
It was the highest price a Marine could pay,
Just so we can live the American way.
He had the guts to fight and die,
To keep the freedom that you live by.
By his dying, your life he buys....
But who gives a damn IF A MARINE DIES?

FOUND IN A POCKET OF A DEAD MARINE
QUANG TRI PROVINCE, VIETNAM
JUNE 1969

8:37pm:




if i would have known that you had to go...
so suddenly, so fast...
how could it be, that the memories
would be all that we'd have left.
now that you're gone, everyday i go on.
but its just not the same.
im feel so empty inside, and many tears i can't always hide.
but i try..

there were so many things that we could have shared.
if time was on our side.
now that you're gone, i can still feel you near
so i'll smile with every tear.

but i'll wait for the day, when i'll see you again.
i'll see you again.
i'll find a way.

i'm missing you.

12:36pm: Easter was nice, went home for the weekend. Cant wait to be home.. not soon enough.. I think its 23 days now.

Had a total ruckus with Amanda, Nicole, Sarah, and Jon. Its great to be with them again.

Gahh cant wait til the summer!!


** me and amanda saw a hand in a leather glove run across the road.. then she proceeded to eat chicken wee wee**

9:33pm: I totally fail at being a girl (33%) But thats not surprising...

[ ] my fingernails/toenails are almost always painted
[x] during the summer pretty much the only shoes i wear are flip flops
[x] my favorite toy as a child were barbies
[ ] my favorite color is pink or purple
[x] i did Gymnastics
[ ] i love skirts
[ ] hollister is one of my favorite place to shop
[ ] tight jeans are the only jeans i'll wear
[x] i love chocolate
[ ] i've never had a real job
TOTAL: 3

[ ] my hair is straightened
[x] i have at least 8 myspace pictures
[x] i usually go shopping once a week
[x] i like to hang out at the mall with friends
[x] i have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace
[x] i've gone to a tanning salon
[ ] ive gone to the beach to tan - not to swim
[x] i have at least 10 pairs of shoes
[ ] i watch either the OC or Laguna Beach
[ ] i change my icon weekly
[ ] i wear a shower cap
TOTAL: 6

[ ] I would NEVER step foot into Hot Topic
[x] my cell phone might as well become a part of me
[ ] i wear mascara everyday (pretty much)
[ ] i've been or am on a diet
[x]bathing suits are adorable
[ ] i dont know the difference between a sheep and a goat.
[ ] big sunglasses are hott
[ ] i have gotten my nails done
[x] i own over 10 purses
[ ] MTV is my one of my favorite channels
TOTAL: 3

[ ] all i want to do at sleepovers is talk about boys
[ ] i love to have other girls do my hair
[ ] i give and receive hugs from all my friends
[ ] hate bugs, snakes, lizards, spiders
[x] carnivals are so fun!!
[x] summer is THE best season
[x] my swimsuit has 2 pieces
[ ] im waiting for my knight in shining armor
[ ] musicians are so hot
[ ] you write me a poem and tell me im beautiful and im all yours
TOTAL: 3


[x] i am self-conscious.
[ ] i cry often
[ ] my car smells like vanilla
[x] my dishes get washed more then once a week
[ ] i dont do sports
[ ] i HATE to run
[ ] i squeal when i am surprised or angry
[ ] i eat dried fruit as a snack
[ ] i love romance novels
[ ] Drew Barrymore is so cute
TOTAL: 2

[ ] i dance a lot.
[ ] i usually spend over an hour to get ready to leave my house
[ ] only have like 5 billion hair products
[x] i love to get dressed up.
[ ] every part of my outfit needs to match
[x] i talk on the phone at least once a day to a few of my friends
[x] i would love to have a photo shoot of myself
[ ] price on clothes hardly matters
[ ] i apply lip gloss 50 times a day
[ ] i wish i were a model
TOTAL: 3

[ ] i wish i could meet Paris Hilton
[x] i have been something that was semi slutty on halloween
[ ] i own Uggs
[ ] Hip Hop is the best music
[ ] i pop my collar
[ ] i like to be the center of attention
[ ] guys with Mohawks are crazy
[x] horses are beautiful
[x] i'd rather not pay attention in school
[ ] cats are adorable
TOTAL: 3


[ ] i write my own music
[x] i would love to visit Hawaii
[x] valentines day is soo cute!
[ ] white is better then black
[ ] i wouldn't be caught dead in all black
[x] my closet is STOCK FULL of clothes
[x] i hate the grunge look of a beard
[x] i love to read gossip magazines
TOTAL: 5


[x] i love to gossip
[x] i had Lisa Frank folders, posters as a kid
[ ] i love Celine dion
[ ] My bubble baths are 2 hr long
[ ] my wedding only needs a groom because it's already planned
[x] my friends and i are in a strict group
[ ] i like children
[ ] diet drinks are ok
[ ] i'm all about being vegetarian
[ ] i refuse to eat at McDonalds
TOTAL: 3


[x] i check my myspace everyday.
[ ] i have a lot of jewlery
[x] claires has cheap jewlery
[ ] my screen names have x's in them
[ ] either one of my myspace names has/had <3/?'s in them
[ ] i would never want to be the opposite sex
[ ] it's not what he/she said it's the way he/she said it
[ ] i have more than 3 pillows on my bed
TOTAL: 2


ADD UP ALL OF THE TOTALS AND REPOST \

4:32pm: 29 days left in Ct.


IM ALMOST FREE!!!!!!!

3:22pm: Banned from laughing in woods

A German has been ordered to stop laughing out loud in the woods after joggers complained he was disturbing the peace.

Accountant Joachim Bahrenfeld, 54, from Datteln said he goes to the woods after work and at weekends to have a good belly laugh.

"It's part of living for me, like eating, drinking and breathing. I feel much better when I laugh, it's freeing and healthy," he said.

But he now faces a £4,000 fine or six months jail if he laughs out loud again after a jogger successfully took him to court saying he was disturbing the peace.

German laugh expert Susanne Maier, who founded the German Laughter Academy which aims to teach serious minded Germans to lighten up, said: "Mr Bahrenfeld has been doing what we advise our students to do and that is to find a place they like to have a good old giggle.

"It would do the person who made the complaint and the judge good to come along to our school and learn for themselves the benefits of letting it all go.

4:26pm: photos to die for lol
I did my first attempt at photography today, kind of morbid but I liked how they came out:



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3:29pm:

4:28pm: Paula came from DC,
She was a whole lot like me,
She grew up on Star Wars
We went to shows in the park,
Professed our love in the dark,
Roadtrips and hardcore
It was according to plan,
We were like Lloyd Dobbler and Diane Cort,
Two hearts in the same place
Then you know what she did,
She met an Internet kid,
They fell in love on MySpace

I know that websites don't kill,
But sometimes they will
Sometimes they will break hearts
I know that I'm an adult,
But Tom it's your fault
You created a monster

Dave didn't know what to do,
Yeah he was Tom's victim too,
Sheila left him last week
Now he is all doom and gloom,
He won't come out of his room,
The Neighbors hear Morrissey
Heartbreak has its appeal,
I know how emo kids feel,
But that is not for me
I wrote one sad quiet song,
And we can all sing along,
But we will stay posi

Now he sits in the darkness as events recur
She sits in the light of the monitor
And he knows he's lost her by her demeanor
Internet grass is always greener

2:08pm: Yup, its about time to whip out the boy shorts. Its gorgeous out.

3:14pm: My hotel/restaurant class threw me a joint party today. It was a wedding shower/baby shower. Dont worry the baby part wasnt for me. Another one of the students just had a baby so that half was for her.

:)

It was cute, got some nice things for our house. Ok got called into work tonight so Im off to do some errands then to work.